Learning how to reclaim and own your dignity after something horrible has happened to you.
I was asked to write something to help people overcome drama and trauma in their lives with dignity and grace.
I do have experience with this. I have had quite a bit of trauma in my life, and some of it was caused by relationship drama. I'm in a great place now and happy most of the time. In fact, I was chatting with a psychologist the other day and he wondered if I was naturally happy, or whether I was manic depressive.
Confession. I am naturally disposed to happiness. I do get sad. I do get angry. I get frustrated. I do get depressed. But those are deviations. My normal state is happy. My son is the same way - his default state - is happy.
Not everyone is so lucky. This may very well be biological in the same way that some people are simply - more anxious, upset or depressed. That is their normal and moments of happiness are deviations from their norm.
Despite my normal state, I have had periods where I spent years in negative emotional states. When I was being stalked, I was so anxious, I developed a physical problem as a result of the constant anxiety.
When I lost my first child to stillbirth in the 8th month of pregnancy, it took a couple of years to get to some level of "normalcy." I still can "lose it" and start crying uncontrollably when I think about it.
Oh - and one time, I almost died. My galbladder went gangrenous. I got to the hospital just in time. Had I waited a day, I would have died. I knew it was bad when they doubled my morphine dose and gave it to me more frequently.
I've also been subjected to some pretty serious personal and professional attacks on my character.
I've had periods in my life that were manifestly horrible. I developed PTSD (diagnosed) from the stalking situation. And I've overcome the drama and trauma of all of that and gotten to a good place in my life. So I feel confident to talk about this. In fact, who better to talk about how to overcome trauma, than someone who has done so successfully.
My Humanism is My Anchor
I'm not special
The first part of the Humanist philosophy that helps me, is the understanding that I am not special. There is nothing about me that will magically make me immune to the hardships of life.
Bad things happen to good people for no other reason than bad things happen. I remember when I lost my child, and I went to an infant loss grief support group. I realized very quickly that I was the only person they ONLY dealing with grief. Everyone else had their theological world turned upside down. Not only did they have to deal with grief, they had to deal with the realization that their faith did not spare them from hardship.
As crazy as it sounds, the knowledge that I am not special, helps me cope. By allowing me to accept the reality of what has happened and just deal with it. I feel really bad for all my friends of faith who deal with grief plus. Grief is hard enough on it's own. I can't imagine adding the suffering that my friends of faith have to deal with on top of their grief. It makes me understand why they get mad at god(s). I don't get mad at god. I just grieve. It's easier.
Others have done it - so can I
Another reason I am able to recover my emotional balance is because I know I can. And I know I can because others have done so, and I've always figured if they can do it, so can I.
I know my current reality, as bad as it is, will not be permanent and that I can take constructive steps to help myself get to a better place. I don't have to be passive. I can be pro-active.
I can pamper myself. I can allow myself to find joy in between moments of sorrow. I can treasure those moments without feeling guilty about my grief or sorry.
I don't have to act on my emotions - I can use compassion to guide my thinking
I can pamper myself. I can allow myself to find joy in between moments of sorrow. I can treasure those moments without feeling guilty about my grief or sorry. I understand my emotions are fleeting and whatever I feel - is ok. I can accept my emotions, without acting on them.
And this last bit is key. I don't have to act on my emotions. I can decide what to do - if anything - about those emotions. Often, I chose to do nothing but experience them.
One of the ways Humanism helps me is it reminds me to be compassionate with myself and others. If I am upset and frustrated, I feel compassion for myself for having those emotions and vow not to act on them. I then try to think of the person I am mad at - with compassion, so that when I do think of how I want to respond, I act reasonably. Often, that means - not acting at all.
Sometimes the best thing you can do to stop interpersonal drama - is to walk away and do nothing. Sometimes, you win - by not fighting.
The bonus to this approach is that - it's grace and dignity personified. People who fight back - demean themselves. People who respond with grace and dignity, win. Not only does this help them maintain their dignity, it helps them feel better about themselves. You don't have to get riled up - you can just leave. Let the other person be a jerk.
I find it's easiest to do this when I convince myself to be compassionate, with myself and the other person. Often, another person behaving badly has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them. Just - walk away. Let them find someone else to hassle. And yes, this is easier said than done.
Suffering is not Noble
The final idea from Humanism that helps me is the understanding that suffering isn't noble. There is no point to suffering. I don't get any points for suffering. It's an unfortunate reality that can't be avoided at times. But that doesn't mean I have to stay in a place of suffering.
As a Humanist, I don't believe there is any purpose in life. We life, we may procreate, then we die. The only impact we have is in our life's work and whether we helped people or not. As far as I am concerned, I may as well be happy. I'd rather be happy than not. So - I chose to be happy.
This doesn't mean I'm automatically happy. It does mean that when I find I'm not happy and it's a lasting condition, I take action to rectify the problem.
Is the problem grief? I can take small steps and know that my grief will eventually ebb - if I let it - and I let it because, to me, it would be crazy to hold onto grief. Holding on to grief is not noble. It's stupid. If I can't let go - and there have been times where I had trouble, I seek out help in the form of therapists and counselors. And they have always helped me identify what was holding me back so I could release it.
The most dramatic example was the stalking. Therapy gave me my life back. If you are stuck - get help. Don't continue to suffer. Do something to change and if you don't know what that is - get professional help.
Learn more:
I have a 6 hour online course where I teach my humanist approach to living life fully and happily. It's called - Living Made Simpler and covers a variety of topics and discusses the humanist approach to living life well.
https://humanistlearning.com/livingmadesimpler1/
Life isn’t easy. It is filled with challenges. How we navigate those challenges determines our success in life. If you want to learn more about how to be happy and how to think more effectively about the choices you make, this book will help.
