I was asked by reporter to share one of the most difficult decisions I had to make, this past year. My answer: whether to keep the company going or not.
I'm not going to lie, the last couple of years have been tough. My ability to concentrate on the work has ebbed and flowed and different times. I don't feel like I've been as effective as I have wanted to be. And the pandemic? Well, I've wanted to just - escape. As I think most people have.
The reality is, we are living through a global pandemic. And our primary job in a pandemic is to survive the pandemic. The instinct to insulate the family and just withdraw, is a protective instinct. It's healthy actually.
The problem is, that instinct is at odds with running a company with requires, not withdrawal, but engagement. Finding the will to stay engaged has been really tough for me.
I have ultimately decided to stay engaged because, I really do feel that what I do matters and can make the world a better place.
Being a Humanist helps, because it encourages me to think - beyond myself into my impact on others. And it's honestly - only my feeling of responsibility to others that has kept me going.
If you are struggling too - you have my sympathy. My advice? It's ok to feel like you are struggling when the reality is - you are struggling. That's acknowledging reality. It's also ok to take care of your own for a while. But for me, I always pair that with my concern and care for others.
Hugs regardless of what you decide to do for you.